Hi all! I’ve been seeing this type of blog post circulate all blogging platforms and I’ve also seen so many Youtube vids about this sorta topic so I thought I’d give my two cents on the whole thing.
Now let’s just get things straight. I do not condone underage drinking – although I am eighteen years old now, I was not when some of the stories take place. Also, I do not wish for anyone to use alcohol to solve problems or at least attempt to.
I’m not much of a drinker. In fact, I’m not much of a person who goes out in general. But when I do go out, it’s like on very special occasions. I’m not the type of person who goes on weekly trips to the pub, that’s what I mean! (Not that there is anything wrong with that)
I’ve noticed I drink so much more to fit in more so than actually wanting to drink. Everyone else is drinking so why don’t I want to? I know full well I’ll prefer to sit in my room and dance to music with friends than go to a pub and get out of my face drunk. I don’t believe my friends would be interested in seeing me if I didn’t want to get drunk with them.
I also have a fear of drunk people when I, myself, am not drunk. I’m unsure where this stemmed from but I simply cannot be around drunk people when I am stone cold sober. It just won’t happen. So I personally think these reasons are the few reasons I do get drunk when I happen to go out.
I also have noticed that whenever I have a relapse with my depression, I tend to want to get drunk so much more. As I’ve previously said I don’t really care for alcohol but when I’m sad or lonely or having a down period, I’m more prone to doing so. I like to think it gets rid of my problems although, I do know that that isn’t want happens. So it’s just not healthy in this sense.
I’m unsure where I’m going with this blog post as I just seem to be rambling about my reasons for drinking alcohol… BUT I know I’m kinda not dependant on the whole thing. Only in my down episodes, which gratefully are not that frequent as of late.
I just know full well that if you ever see me at a bar or a pub, you’ll see me drinking a soft drink more than a double vodka and coke.